RIOTTEDCATASTROPHE!

I’m gna start an emo post. Eeyer shit :( but I’m getting all emo cause of a comment that someone said. I seriously cant believe you would say smth lyk that and even though u didn’t say it to me nor did you expect me to know what you said but what u said really hurt me & I believe the other person u mentioned too. I thought we were okay again but somehow everything is different. We aren’t the same anymore not that I dont want to but there’s just this feeling that u don’t want us to be together again the way we used to be. I thought we could just forget the period when our whole grp was at rock bottom n move on but somehow I just feel lyk a unwanted annoying tagalong that you cant seem to shake off. But that comment you made seriously pissed me off. Even if you don’t think we can be lyk we used to you cant just go & tell _____ to not well.. I don’t wanna say or it’ll be too obvious:\ I’ll still try to pretend I don’t know what u said to her but.. I just want us to be one again I’m willing to pretend nth of this sort ever happens. Lyk its seriously unfair to make that kinda comment just as it would be to say I was not involved in us falling apart.u probably wont know the amnt of times I tried to get both sides to be at peace with one another but it seems I nvr succeed lyk when I decide to try to talk to you I end up comin to sch late if not someone would be beside you all the time so I wont have the privacy to talk to you. Other times I’m just plain coward. I write this not to say what a great hero I am trying to help us all but its more of lyk I cant believe I tried so hard to get us back together but when we finally have no fued btwn us anymore u make this kinda comment its just so.. disheartening. Its lyk in those show where the guy who lyks this girls n he trys hard n make smth sweet secrectly for the girl n gives in to her n the girl gives the thing he specially makes for her away. Ya I feel lyk the guy just worst. You seemed to have moved along. With yr new gang n all n its selfish to ask u to leave them n come back. But now its all weird w/o your. My post is getting damn obvious now & to whoever I’m writing to is u noe what I mean get this: I STILL WANT US BACK. When u mentioned u still treasure us I felt happy but when I read below the part which roughly reads cant be the same again totally saddened me. Whatever the case whether we go back together or not I hope the buzz off feeling I get when sometimes when we are aound disappears. I’m wayyyyyyyyyyy to emo now gahhhhh. Unnecessary? :\

i fear of the outcome..